Living in-Between

 Right now, there is a large "For Sale" sign in my front yard.  And in a yard down in Tucson, Arizona, just a few steps away from my youngest son and his family, is another "For Sale" sign, with a little "Pending" sign attached to it.

"Pending".  That's how I feel my life is right now.  Pending.  I pack and clean and go to the doctor and wait.  Wait for this house to sell.  Wait to settle into a new one.  Wait to be close to children and grandchildren.  Start the process of closing this chapter of our lives after 41 years in New Mexico.  Try to imagine the next chapter in Arizona.  But I'm not actually doing either this life here, or the one in Arizona.  I'm "pending."

This in-between time, not what we anticipated but obviously what the Lord intended all along, has been a challenge for me and for my dear husband.  While we try to keep doing what we need to do here, many of our responsibilities are now in the hands of others.  That is how it should be.  But we don't know what the timing of this move is going to be, or what the Lord will call us to do once we get there.  It is like I am in-between two worlds, not really belongong to either at this point.  

While I see lots of spiritual lessons here, I don't much like this in-between.  God has so richly provided for us in so many ways, I have no complaints.  But still this seemingly meaningless cycle of packing, cleaning, and repeating leaves me less content than I could wish.  I am working to stay grateful and let my requests be made known with thanksgiving, and remember that every moment is a gift, and every interaction, whether with neighbors, childrens, potential house buyers, or realtors, is a an interaction with am imortal soul.  But mostly, it feels like I'm pending.

Lord, help me to live each moment in the light of your love and the truth of your word.  Help me redeem every moment, even the in-between ones, to your honor and glory. 

Praying for you to live fully in your moments, Gentle Reader.  And please pray for me to do the same.